hipster fidelity
so, i can't sleep, and i am doing what i usually do during periods of insomnia... thinking.
what does it all mean? katherine wanted to be with kevin, and not me. allison wanted to be with erik, and not me. stefanie--bless her heart, i can say nothing bad about her, but for the sake of listing major exes and almost-exes, she's here. brynn wanted to be with trevor, and not me. sloane wanted to be with dave, and not me. mollie wanted to be with jordan, and not me. sarah wanted to be with eric and alone and with brandon, and not me.
i am frequently told how nice i am, how this and that i am. everyone thinks this is a good thing. lady macbeth thought her husband had been spoiled by the milk of human goodness. i think i had a soy version of that milk, and i have been spoiled to niceness, and by niceness.
so, i am going to take arnold's advice. from now on, i will be mean to girls, and perhaps they will like me more. i will yell into telephones that i do not play games. i will check out other girls, including her friends, and my roommate's girlfriend. i will talk about 'pulling mad bitches when i move to cali.' i mean, these things work for arnold, and beds of poison ivy and such. we all need a little more of don solomon in the world.
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free meal at bistro, just for knowing how to cut and paste? i am king.
why do i continue to care? maybe that's all i can do.
posted by Michael at
4/17/2005 02:31:00 AM
2 Comments:
Speaking from personal experience, I can say five things:
(1) There is at least one girl (but probably more) who wanted to be with you and you didn't want to be with her. And who felt the exact same way about couples formed by her leftover exes (and why they were exes to begin with).
(2) You know perfectly well how to be mean to girls. You've done it before. And honestly, aforementioned girl would have liked you even if you'd decided to be nice to her the whole time.
(3) The thing to remember is that you can't get so caught up in these girls who don't want you that you keep your eyes/heart/mind closed to people who are better for you. It sounds obvious, I know, and I'm sure I've said it to you before, but people rarely listen to pieces of advice such as this. So maybe if I say it enough, you'll be the first to listen.
(4) You have amazing friends. Be grateful that you have them, because not many people have real friends like that, and that is a much lonelier place to be than singledom.
(5) ::virtual hug::
By
smartest person ever, at 4/17/2005 02:42:00 PM
someone on that list argues for a reevaluation of the terms of inclusion as such, as they do not account for the involvement of various named and unnamed other parties in any semblance of temporal veracity. it's more complicated than that, it's always been more complicated than that, and it always will be more complicated than that. its also not always a choice of "with...and not with"—sometimes the two have nothing to do with one another. also, sometimes, perhaps more than once, you wanted to be with someone else and not with her, and you told her, a number of times, in various ways.
not that any of that makes it okay, but, she's still sorry, because hurting you was never anything she had in mind, and because the thought that her happiness causes you pain and angst makes her most decidedly anything but happy.
we're pretty close—she asked me to tell you.
By
skipper, at 4/18/2005 10:46:00 PM
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